I remember what it was like to be an innocent little girl. All I cared about was Sesame Street, catching butterflies, (which I never mastered) and reading picture books. Everything was so simple back then. Isn't it interesting how things change so quickly? I never thought that growing up would be half as difficult as it has been. I thought that everyone would want to be my friend and I would be the most well liked girl in school. I thought that everyone would like me for the way I was. But not everything can go your way.
That innocent little girl who loved nature and picture books, has finally grown up. And it's strange when I really think about how much I've changed.
After going through the torturous years of elementary and middle school, I feel like I've learned a few things. First off, not EVERYONE is going to like you. Some people might become jealous of you. Even the ones who you thought were your friends. It's true. Sometimes people decide to hate you for no reason in particular. It feels like one morning, someone you don't even really know wakes up and says, "I'm going to hate such-n-so's guts today." It's not fair, but that's just the way things are.
I would know. I suffered so much when I was in public school. Even when I transfered to a charter school, things got worse. I was bullied for no reason, treated like trash, and I got told that I was ugly and worthless every week. It got to the point where I wanted to kill myself. Nevertheless, I am so thankful that I didn't.
Everything happens for a reason. It may not make sense right away, but everything comes together. Since I was bullied for so long, (7 school years to be exact) I realize that now I am called to help other girls. Not just with the whole bullying sitch, but everything. Everything from boys, to school, to parents. Because even though I'm only 15, I know some stuff. And I want to share as much as I can with my peers and anyone else who wants to listen.
If you're wondering how things turned out, I'm home schooled now. I have great friends
Still, I run over a few bumps in the road on the way to becoming myself. People still sometimes hate me for no reason, people still try to hurt me. But you know what? What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. So thank you to all the horrible people who hate me for being myself, or just existing in general. You've helped to make me into the girl I am today. I love you guys.
Eventually you will realize that the people who dislike you, are just upset because they can't be like you. Insecurity is the worst. But don't let that stop you from being you. Because you know what? You're awesome.
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